13 November 2008

reinvention: a good person

today's a weird day.

i woke up feeling alive. (not to mention it was my US-aversarry 4yrs and danny-versarry 22mos yesterday)

what i mean is, i woke up today with the feeling that i want to be a good person. i want to be a better version of me. no drama, no insecurities, no boundaries, sky's the limit. crush that glass wall and glass ceiling theory.

my literature professor in university of santo tomas, in the philippines, once said, "one's reach should be farther than one's grasp, or what's a heaven for?" i believed it before, but forgot about it. now, i want to relieve it. it's going to go side by side with my own matra, "if i can't see that star, at least i know i shine."

this is me
demi lovato
I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I had this dream
Bright inside of me
I'm going to let it show
It's time
To let you know
To let you know
This is the real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I've found
Who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
Do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark
To dream about a life where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's to far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way
This is the real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I've found
Who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
This is the real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
This is me
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
[[ [[ [[ a disney song, ladies and gentlemen. but disney songs have never failed to remind me that i'm never too old for simple inspirations, simple fun, simple happiness, simple pleasure. simplicity is key. and yes, it's my time to shine. ]] ]] ]]

will i?
rent
Will I lose my dignity
will someone care
will i wake tomorrow
from this nightmare
[[ [[ [[ for those who are familiar with rent, these are the only words of the song, and it builds up as they sing it over and over and over. iono. whenever i hear this song, it makes me want to challenge things. can i do it? is it worth it? what have i got to lose? so what? if this is a nightmare now, there's nowhere else to go but up. ]] ]] ]]

unwritten
natasha bedingfield
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, oh, oh
I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it inNo one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, yeah, yeah
[[ [[ [[ this song may sound very The Hills-ish, but even before they've used it as a theme song, this has always been my happy song. yes, the rest is still unwritten. and i am writing and rewriting my life. and yes, there is room for mistakes, and choices. coz nothing is set in stone. ]] ]] ]]
i am who i am and i like it.
jaja

1 comment:

Bruce said...

isn't growing up and finding your place in life fun, or what?! Congrats...on loving yourself!! Sometimes there are moments in life at are really just hard to describe, but apparently for you, this wasn't because you got it all down in words from songs. I admire people like you, people that can actually read between the lines of a song/lyrics. it's something most people don't think about. Just keep on doing what you're doing and enjoy life to its fullest.

-Bruce