so.. the first week of this semester is over.. well, for the most part. and it surprisingly turned out great for me.
i mean, i went MIA during the last few weeks of last semester and people were LOOKING for me. and i mean, LOOKING. people asking danny, people texting me, messaging me in facebook.. and when i run into them somewhere,, trust me, it's all exclamation points. read: oh my god JANIS!!!!!! eeeehhh!!! it's janis!!! janis,, where have you been??!!!!! janis give me some love!! i miss you!!
haha. those times make my day. seriously.
anyhoo. i didn't show up for the first day of school, which was a tuesday. but i did log on my online classes. and then when i did show up wednesday, i can't believe how much people missed me. in my head i'm going, "they love me! they really love me!" haha. now THAT is why i'm not moving with my family to california. crazy as i am for staying. i have people here who are just full of glee when they see me. i have people here who appreciates me and gets excited when they see me and recognizes my skills and efforts and just, well, my being.
so yea. i showed up wednesday kinda apprehensive because i felt like i wouldn't fit in anymore. but i was welcomed with open arms. haha. and then, i jumped right back in business. helping out with club stuff and brainstorming club events and shopping for club materials. and then saying hi to people and jumping on them and grabbing their butts and annoying the hizzle out of then and tickling their goochs. haha only thuvi and mandy. <3
and not to mention my infamous obnoxiousness. being loud out in the hallways and singing out loud and out of tune and just being hyper. oh, i miss those days. haha.
and now that i'm back in business, doing club stuff,, oh and school too,, all i can say is i'm back with a vengeance. haha!
oh and did i mention i lalaLOVE my car.
although i'm starting to realize it's more gas-guzzling than i thought.
well,, you win some and you lose some. this time, my pockets are losing.
jaja
23 January 2009
19 January 2009
lists, lists, lists..
things to do for the week of awesome: (read: first week of spring semester)
- log on online classes
- pick up books in ecc
- show up for cpb
- look up provena job
- clean room
- me time
- hair cut
- mani pedi
- stop by dealer place and drop off stuff
- meet with danny and prof for lunch
- go to work
- reach bank goals
- work out
- clean out old van
- >> PIMP MY RIDE!!!!!!! <<
18 January 2009
night out
it's 816a and i'm blogging and i have work at 10a and i went out last night and i should be getting ready for work now. but i'm blogging.
last night was a friend's party and we went to this place in schaumburg called uh.. john barley corn. i think that's the name. and it's a restaurant/bar downstairs and a club upstairs. it's kinda like hennessy/onQ turned hennessy/boogie nights here in elgin by 90. only jbc is more affordable.
so yea. what's the point of my blog again, i already forgot.. oh yea. i was just thinking last night that maybe i am growing up (!! aaaahhhhh !!), and my taste for a night out of fun and partying has changed. there's this seed of satisfaction that i get whenever i hang out with the 20somethings than with a crowd of young 'uns + newbs (read: people my age as opposed to people younger than 21 and/or just turned 21, thus newbies.)
it's like with the younger crowd it's who can drink the most, who can dress the best, who can dance the sluttiest, who can hook up first. it's about too much drinking, too much flirting, too much bootydancing, too much skin, too much make up. and anyone noticed how they're always tell their stories "in confidence" coz they don't want to find out and then realize you're not the only person they've told? i've always thought that was funny.
with the 20something crowd, i think since there's a "we've been there, done that" attitude, it's more relaxed. we don't go to a club "on the prowl". it's about friends, and catching up, and there's definitely less adventure to the bathroom coz someone drank too much and is puking their brains out. i feel more laid back, coz no one is too agressive to "party it out." i mean, don't get me wrong, there'r still wild crazy nights and wild crazy stories, but the fact that we're cruising our twenties already, it's "nothing new."
i mean my younger friends, they're fun too. the craziness, wackiness, immaturity (i don't mean this in a badway, i promise), it's fun too, like house parties and hang outs and movies and the mall. that stuff.
iono, i think i am more at par with partying with the 20somethings. i enjoy it more. i don't end up leaving the club talking about stuff that happened at the club that i didn't like, or appreciate.
plus there's less "having sex on the dance floor" dance moves.
cheers to friends!!
jaja
last night was a friend's party and we went to this place in schaumburg called uh.. john barley corn. i think that's the name. and it's a restaurant/bar downstairs and a club upstairs. it's kinda like hennessy/onQ turned hennessy/boogie nights here in elgin by 90. only jbc is more affordable.
so yea. what's the point of my blog again, i already forgot.. oh yea. i was just thinking last night that maybe i am growing up (!! aaaahhhhh !!), and my taste for a night out of fun and partying has changed. there's this seed of satisfaction that i get whenever i hang out with the 20somethings than with a crowd of young 'uns + newbs (read: people my age as opposed to people younger than 21 and/or just turned 21, thus newbies.)
it's like with the younger crowd it's who can drink the most, who can dress the best, who can dance the sluttiest, who can hook up first. it's about too much drinking, too much flirting, too much bootydancing, too much skin, too much make up. and anyone noticed how they're always tell their stories "in confidence" coz they don't want to find out and then realize you're not the only person they've told? i've always thought that was funny.
with the 20something crowd, i think since there's a "we've been there, done that" attitude, it's more relaxed. we don't go to a club "on the prowl". it's about friends, and catching up, and there's definitely less adventure to the bathroom coz someone drank too much and is puking their brains out. i feel more laid back, coz no one is too agressive to "party it out." i mean, don't get me wrong, there'r still wild crazy nights and wild crazy stories, but the fact that we're cruising our twenties already, it's "nothing new."
i mean my younger friends, they're fun too. the craziness, wackiness, immaturity (i don't mean this in a badway, i promise), it's fun too, like house parties and hang outs and movies and the mall. that stuff.
iono, i think i am more at par with partying with the 20somethings. i enjoy it more. i don't end up leaving the club talking about stuff that happened at the club that i didn't like, or appreciate.
plus there's less "having sex on the dance floor" dance moves.
cheers to friends!!
jaja
12 January 2009
100 things i love. about you, about us. (..and counting)
1. I love how you know and can copy all of my facial expressions and mannerisms that even I am not aware of.
2. I love how you are always ready to grab the wheel when I’m driving and singing (because you know I will diva it out and close my eyes soon).
3. I love how you take care of me, no questions asked.
4. I love how you enjoy watching high school musical (all 3 of them) with me and are not embarrassed to admit that you do.
5. I love how we sing along to high school musical whenever and wherever we can.
6. I love how you sometimes indulge my somewhat expensive yet unnecessary spending on food. i.e., olive garden, red lobster, jimmy’s charhouse, etc.
7. I love your patience with me when we work out.. and diet.
8. I love it when you ask my opinion on stuff. Just because.
9. I love how we can hang out at Meijer anytime of the day.. or in the middle of the night.
10. I love how we both agree to go as a pair for Halloween.
11. I love your patience. Period.
12. I love how you love children.
13. And I especially love how you love my little sisters.
14. I love how you do things for me and don’t even tell me about it. I find out about it later on and I feel really special. i.e., empty dishes in my room, cleaning up my old apartment, my bathroom, etc.
15. I love how you don’t mind driving to my house just so I don’t have to drive to yours. Sometimes.
16. I love how I can be comfortable eating with you.
17. I love how you subconsciously influenced me to like children.
18. I love how you love cartoons and video games and toys and we both have fun with it.
19. I love how you loved Chowder the first time I showed it to you.
20. I love how I trust you so much that I can fall asleep while you’re driving.
21. I love how I trust you so much that we went off on a road trip to florida even though we both didn’t have the experience for it.
22. I love how you brought me back to God slowly and never pressured me.
23. I love how you teach me new stuff. Like how to jump a car or where to put the windshield wiper washer and coolant.
24. I love how you’re much more organized than me.
25. I love falling asleep with you.
26. I love how you take care of me when I get drunk.
27. I love the little hole on your nose.
28. I love your vampire-ish teeth.
29. I love how you love watching chick flicks.
30. I love how you let me install sims 2 on your laptop even though I never got around to playing it.
31. I love how you learned to play the guitar by yourself.
32. I love how you do plays/musicals.
33. I love that you introduce me to your friends and bring me along when you can.
34. I love your family.
35. I love how you love aiden. And Julia.
36. I love how you read my blogs.
37. I love how you listen to me.
38. I love how you stand your ground. Yet let me get away with some stuff.
39. I love how you cook for me.
40. I love how you indulge me with taking your pictures.
41. I love how you let me insert my hand under your thigh when you’re driving coz you can’t hold my hand.. coz you drive a stickshift.
42. I love how we never got sick of hanging out in my old apartment.
43. I love our Thursday night dinners when I had my apartment.
44. I love how you shoveled my driveway in my old apartment that one time there was a snow storm. And I didn’t even ask you to do so.
45. I love how you tolerate my stepdad for the two of us.
46. I love it when you finished five people you meet in heaven. I was so proud of you!
47. I love to always see you in your karate uniform.. hott!
48. I love it when I saw you in your scrubs uniform.. hott!
49. I love how you made mashed potatoes with my sisters this past thanksgiving.
50. I love how you understand me and my dysfunctional life and relationships with family.
51. I love how you tried to knit and crochet and make bead jewelry.
52. I love how you supported me when I was president of the asian Filipino club.
53. I love how we both work so osang together that we do great things.
54. I love cuddling next to you whether it’s warm or cold, taking a nap or sleeping.
55. I love how we fall asleep holding hands.
56. I love rubbing my leg on your leg.
57. I love how you practically melt when I try to give you a massage. Or scratch your back.
58. I love how you took me out to a nice dinner when I was let go from my job.
59. I love how you listen to me when I daydream.
60. I love how you look when you just woken up.
61. I love how you shiver when I rub your back.
62. I love it when I see you from far away and you’re walking towards me.
63. I love how I know, just know, that I will always be safe and will never be lost when I’m with you.
64. I love how I feel like nothing can go wrong whenever you hold my hand.
65. I love how you always reach for my hand when we’re walking in a crowded place.
66. I love how you make me spaghetti and adobo.
67. I love how you used to always buy me subway for lunch when I used to work crappy hours at chase.
68. I love how you would come and visit me on weekends at work when I used to work at Sherman hospital.
69. I love how you would meet up with me for lunch when I used to work at bowes.
70. I love that you drink girly drinks with me.
71. I love that you have a good head on your shoulders.
72. I love that you have a good heart and a sensible mind.
73. I love your deep relationship with god.
74. I love how you love and protect your family.
75. I love how you love and protect me.
76. I love it whenever you ask me “how was your day?”
77. I love it when you kiss my cheek very lightly.
78. I love when you hug me supertight.
79. I love the fact that whenever you’re cold I’m warm and when I’m warm you’re cold.
80. I love that we are practically bonnie and clyde of the century with the teamwork that we do in school.
81. I love our ne-yo cd entitled “florida spring break 07”, *wink*
82. I love it when we’re sitting down and you put your arm around my waist.
83. I love the way you just look at me.
84. I love our livestrong bands
85. I love it when we go shopping together.
86. I love how you come get me when my car battery dies.. in front of my house.
87. I love that you are open and honest in our relationship.
88. I love watching movies with you.
89. I love how you always keep me in check. Even if it means me getting mad.
90. I love how you understand me. Period.
91. I love how you’d buy me pads when I run out.
92. I love how we’d be together practically the whole day and yet you’re the last person I talk to at night.
93. I love how whenever you get drunk you whisper sweet nothings in my ear.
94. I love that you accept me and forgive me for all the wrong things I’ve done.
95. I love that we never give up on each other.
96. I love how you would never give up on me.
97. I love the sound of your voice when you say sorry, or thank you, or I love you, or I miss you, or good night, even when you say I’m lame, or I’m a weirdo.
98. I love that you indulge me in doing something every 12th of the month.
99. I love that you like wearing our matching noodles and company shirts every 12th of the month.
100. I love how you love me.
2. I love how you are always ready to grab the wheel when I’m driving and singing (because you know I will diva it out and close my eyes soon).
3. I love how you take care of me, no questions asked.
4. I love how you enjoy watching high school musical (all 3 of them) with me and are not embarrassed to admit that you do.
5. I love how we sing along to high school musical whenever and wherever we can.
6. I love how you sometimes indulge my somewhat expensive yet unnecessary spending on food. i.e., olive garden, red lobster, jimmy’s charhouse, etc.
7. I love your patience with me when we work out.. and diet.
8. I love it when you ask my opinion on stuff. Just because.
9. I love how we can hang out at Meijer anytime of the day.. or in the middle of the night.
10. I love how we both agree to go as a pair for Halloween.
11. I love your patience. Period.
12. I love how you love children.
13. And I especially love how you love my little sisters.
14. I love how you do things for me and don’t even tell me about it. I find out about it later on and I feel really special. i.e., empty dishes in my room, cleaning up my old apartment, my bathroom, etc.
15. I love how you don’t mind driving to my house just so I don’t have to drive to yours. Sometimes.
16. I love how I can be comfortable eating with you.
17. I love how you subconsciously influenced me to like children.
18. I love how you love cartoons and video games and toys and we both have fun with it.
19. I love how you loved Chowder the first time I showed it to you.
20. I love how I trust you so much that I can fall asleep while you’re driving.
21. I love how I trust you so much that we went off on a road trip to florida even though we both didn’t have the experience for it.
22. I love how you brought me back to God slowly and never pressured me.
23. I love how you teach me new stuff. Like how to jump a car or where to put the windshield wiper washer and coolant.
24. I love how you’re much more organized than me.
25. I love falling asleep with you.
26. I love how you take care of me when I get drunk.
27. I love the little hole on your nose.
28. I love your vampire-ish teeth.
29. I love how you love watching chick flicks.
30. I love how you let me install sims 2 on your laptop even though I never got around to playing it.
31. I love how you learned to play the guitar by yourself.
32. I love how you do plays/musicals.
33. I love that you introduce me to your friends and bring me along when you can.
34. I love your family.
35. I love how you love aiden. And Julia.
36. I love how you read my blogs.
37. I love how you listen to me.
38. I love how you stand your ground. Yet let me get away with some stuff.
39. I love how you cook for me.
40. I love how you indulge me with taking your pictures.
41. I love how you let me insert my hand under your thigh when you’re driving coz you can’t hold my hand.. coz you drive a stickshift.
42. I love how we never got sick of hanging out in my old apartment.
43. I love our Thursday night dinners when I had my apartment.
44. I love how you shoveled my driveway in my old apartment that one time there was a snow storm. And I didn’t even ask you to do so.
45. I love how you tolerate my stepdad for the two of us.
46. I love it when you finished five people you meet in heaven. I was so proud of you!
47. I love to always see you in your karate uniform.. hott!
48. I love it when I saw you in your scrubs uniform.. hott!
49. I love how you made mashed potatoes with my sisters this past thanksgiving.
50. I love how you understand me and my dysfunctional life and relationships with family.
51. I love how you tried to knit and crochet and make bead jewelry.
52. I love how you supported me when I was president of the asian Filipino club.
53. I love how we both work so osang together that we do great things.
54. I love cuddling next to you whether it’s warm or cold, taking a nap or sleeping.
55. I love how we fall asleep holding hands.
56. I love rubbing my leg on your leg.
57. I love how you practically melt when I try to give you a massage. Or scratch your back.
58. I love how you took me out to a nice dinner when I was let go from my job.
59. I love how you listen to me when I daydream.
60. I love how you look when you just woken up.
61. I love how you shiver when I rub your back.
62. I love it when I see you from far away and you’re walking towards me.
63. I love how I know, just know, that I will always be safe and will never be lost when I’m with you.
64. I love how I feel like nothing can go wrong whenever you hold my hand.
65. I love how you always reach for my hand when we’re walking in a crowded place.
66. I love how you make me spaghetti and adobo.
67. I love how you used to always buy me subway for lunch when I used to work crappy hours at chase.
68. I love how you would come and visit me on weekends at work when I used to work at Sherman hospital.
69. I love how you would meet up with me for lunch when I used to work at bowes.
70. I love that you drink girly drinks with me.
71. I love that you have a good head on your shoulders.
72. I love that you have a good heart and a sensible mind.
73. I love your deep relationship with god.
74. I love how you love and protect your family.
75. I love how you love and protect me.
76. I love it whenever you ask me “how was your day?”
77. I love it when you kiss my cheek very lightly.
78. I love when you hug me supertight.
79. I love the fact that whenever you’re cold I’m warm and when I’m warm you’re cold.
80. I love that we are practically bonnie and clyde of the century with the teamwork that we do in school.
81. I love our ne-yo cd entitled “florida spring break 07”, *wink*
82. I love it when we’re sitting down and you put your arm around my waist.
83. I love the way you just look at me.
84. I love our livestrong bands
85. I love it when we go shopping together.
86. I love how you come get me when my car battery dies.. in front of my house.
87. I love that you are open and honest in our relationship.
88. I love watching movies with you.
89. I love how you always keep me in check. Even if it means me getting mad.
90. I love how you understand me. Period.
91. I love how you’d buy me pads when I run out.
92. I love how we’d be together practically the whole day and yet you’re the last person I talk to at night.
93. I love how whenever you get drunk you whisper sweet nothings in my ear.
94. I love that you accept me and forgive me for all the wrong things I’ve done.
95. I love that we never give up on each other.
96. I love how you would never give up on me.
97. I love the sound of your voice when you say sorry, or thank you, or I love you, or I miss you, or good night, even when you say I’m lame, or I’m a weirdo.
98. I love that you indulge me in doing something every 12th of the month.
99. I love that you like wearing our matching noodles and company shirts every 12th of the month.
100. I love how you love me.
08 January 2009
frenemies
sometimes we find an enemy with a friend.
sometimes we find a friend with an enemy.
and if that enemy becomes a friend, are they bound to be an enemy again?
because trust is such a vital part of any relationship, it's also the most volatile. oftentimes, i don't trust myself with making decisions. i'd just "kick it" and hope for the best. and as i've been doing that for the most part of my life, all i can say is "so far, so good."
but when trust becomes an issue.. what happens? and more to the point, what if you can't trust yourself to make your own decision anymore?
ann frank once said, "despite everything, i still believe in the goodness of man." this coming from a thirteen year old who spent a few years of her life hiding in an attic away trying to get away from the nazi rule. and i've been nothing but trying to live by that. if my life is as twice, thrice improved as her, surely i can see and believe in the goodness of man, right?
i just don't want to end up as the joke.
because what if the friend who became the enemy was never supposed to be the enemy?
and what if the enemy who became the friend was never supposed to be the friend?
**JBYAM: this isn't meant to hurt anyone. i've had a literary brainfart and i ended up questioning myself, and my nature.
jaja
sometimes we find a friend with an enemy.
and if that enemy becomes a friend, are they bound to be an enemy again?
because trust is such a vital part of any relationship, it's also the most volatile. oftentimes, i don't trust myself with making decisions. i'd just "kick it" and hope for the best. and as i've been doing that for the most part of my life, all i can say is "so far, so good."
but when trust becomes an issue.. what happens? and more to the point, what if you can't trust yourself to make your own decision anymore?
ann frank once said, "despite everything, i still believe in the goodness of man." this coming from a thirteen year old who spent a few years of her life hiding in an attic away trying to get away from the nazi rule. and i've been nothing but trying to live by that. if my life is as twice, thrice improved as her, surely i can see and believe in the goodness of man, right?
i just don't want to end up as the joke.
because what if the friend who became the enemy was never supposed to be the enemy?
and what if the enemy who became the friend was never supposed to be the friend?
**JBYAM: this isn't meant to hurt anyone. i've had a literary brainfart and i ended up questioning myself, and my nature.
jaja
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