ja, stop pretending.

so, i'm the secretary for the ultimate frisbee club here in school. because someone asked me to be, and he said i don't have to do anything special. so i accepted the position as a favor.

but i didn't know i actually HAVE to play frisbee..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

at first, i just thought we'd be throwing frisbees around.. not ACTUALLY play the game.. haha! so now instead of me being inside the gym with the other members of the club (who are mostly boys that i don't know), i'm hiding out by the events center lobby and blogging!

i am so unathletic.

jaja

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today was college programming board's fundraiser: pie the professional.

and. it. was. AWESOME!

rookies.

"you don't put actual coins in there! [insert laugh here]. you guys are rookies!" - gL.

yesterday was a fun day. except for that one part of the night that was just a straight hour(ish) of yelling and crying. but overall, it was fun.

we had the chance to catch up with old friends from the aFlipz Club that danny and i have actually stayed in touch with and hang out with here and there. they invited us to house of tokyo for lunch for danny's birthday and it was so much fun. and as a side dish of extra fun, danny and i didn't have to pay for anything.. and i never thought i'd say this but sushi, aside from the california rolls and spicy california rolls that i DO eat, is actually yummy. prior to yesterday, i was only familiar with 2 kinds of sushi. or whatever. and from what i ate from that tray, i think i wanna go again. -yum-.

in the middle of lunch, i had an epiphany. as i was enjoying my chicken teriyaki and tempura lunch box, i looked around the table, and i honestly couldn't help feeling contented. not just with the food, haha! i feel like i'm really and SLOWLY easing my way to actual adulthood. a part of me wants to stay in that teenage-rebellious-no-responsibilities-attached stage. but as i was going through my regular day-to-day living, i eased into adulthood without even realizing it. does that mean i'm ready to be a "mature grown up"? .:gag:. just saying it weirds me out. but i guess it's time. *sigh* here i was, downing rice with chopsticks (SO asian.. XD), and i am surrounded with friends that i've known for the short time i've been here in the US (4something years) and i've seen them as the club president and mommy, the outspoken vice president, the young player, the funny friend, the quiet athlete, and me the loud and vulgar crazy asian. but now sitting around the table was diana the pharmacist who's getting married with her boyfriend of ten years, katrina and roger who's married with two beautiful kids, danny my boyfriend of two years and a holder of two certificates and two musicals under his belt, lyra the nurse. and then there's me, who used to be the loud and vulgar crazy asian who's now the loud crazy asian who's mom still helps pay her bills. i feel like i'm still where i was three years ago. but i'm ready to start my life. and i'm ready to start now.

on a lighter note..

danny and i met up with roger and jane and quartz to play in the casino! yay! haha! we were all such newbies (except for roger). danny and i were walking around as if we're lost. it was so hilarious, really! we kept going from slot machine to slot machine. and then we both realized i'm kinda lucky in this slot machine thing. haha! beginner's luck? hope not!! but it was fun. out of our $20 budget, we manage to only lose $8. but that's coz when i was playing with my last two dollars, i actually won it back.. and then some. and cashed out with $12. not bad. haha!

inxs >> i wanna go again!!

jaja

when the past came to haunt me

so earlier today, being bored as usual, i googled myself. just for funsies. and i came across -> my old blogs! and then i realized i have made a LOT of blogs within the past seven years.

easyjournal. 2 accounts: serendipity & knoxgurl.
tabulas. 2 accounts: crazysexycool & jakhe.
xanga. 1 account: (i forgot the name).
friendster. 1 account: (i forgot the name).
myspace. 2 accounts: (my personal myspace) & (my photographer myspace).
facebook. 1 account: (my personal facbeook)
blogspot. 3 accounts: insane to the membrane, shopaholic, never apologize for your art (recently deleted).

this does not include the small minor blogs i opened from some minor sites that i already forgot, including the first one i opened back when i was in 5th or 6th grade.. when it was still new and was referred to >> weblogging << not blogging.

so now my questions is.. what in the world was i thinking and i opened up squillions of blog accounts?

the answer, dear audience, is simply egoism.

and i don't mean that in a really bad or demeaning way towards myself. as i have learned somewhere in my ethics class, egoism feeds our soul. for the most part. love of oneself gives us something to live by. and my personal mantra? no one will ever love me as much as i love myself.

so go ahead and call me egotistic, or narcissistic, or whatever. i am simply acknowledging my existence my this apparent dire need to chronicle my own life. and i have no problem with that. i'm not cocky, or self-centered to a point where i am delusionally convinced that the world revolves around me. i for a fact know that's not true. and yet i get this small satisfaction within myself in knowing that i am going through my life with memories, achievements, failures, rants, raves, etc., and i have proof that i have lived.. and is still alive. through my blogs.

jaja

my old self

so i was bored a few minutes ago and decided to google myself. i came across some of my old blogs and it was hilarious!! well, first off, i had blogs all over the place!!

xanga.

tabulas.

easyjournal.

friendster.

myspace.

facebook.

blogspot.

holy gizzle! haha. take about major chronicling of my life! i mean, i've always had this dream/thought/ambition/goal that i will do something great someday or be someone great someday that people will eventually make a movie or write a book about me.

rants.

hoo boy. here goes.

1. after planning danny's birthday weekend, i learned a few things: a.) i really love the rush and panic that goes into planning an event >>i may really have found a career path this time!! b.) friends always say that they'll be there for you no matter what just call them anytime blah blah blah but they can't even stop by to celebrate the anniversary of a friend's birth (i'm just ranting coz i spent 500plus text messages and endless hours in facebook tryna contact everyone.. boo!) c.) some people you don't expect to show up do show up and those that they said they'll be there didn't and i realized it has become a pet peeve of mine now.
2. kudos to jose and noah coz they're 3 for 3 and 2 for 3, respectively.. they know what it means.
3. sometime last week, i went to this one place and there were lawyers everywhere. ish. and i saw this one lawyer who walked out the door and his shoes were not shiny. At All. and i thought, "do i really wanna have a lawyer that can't even shine his shoes?" coz i definitely believe that it can reflect him as a lawyer. i think.
4. i need a job!!!!!! i want to have a birthday week and that means i need MONEY!!!!!

okay, that's enough rants for now.

happy birthday danny!

first off, i haven't been blogging with substance lately. i've been busy. work (or lack thereof), school, cpb, stress. and planning danny's birthday weekend. [[ note to self: maybe try and get into the event planning business as seem to have some in depth skill of some sort in said field. ]]

anyhoo. busy day today! it's danny's birthday! well, danny's birthday WEEKEND. there's stuff to do, people to invite, places to go to.. and bags to pack. =D

and as i am so broke that pre-school kids have more money than me (that's not just an expression, that's a fact),, the only thing i can give danny as his birthday gift is to take care of all plans for his birthday.

• lunch at bdubs? CHECK.
• gameworks? CHECK.
• contact jason? CHECK.
• invite everyone that matters? CHECK.
  
• hotel reservations? CHECK.
• saturday night? CHECK.
• karaoke sunday? CHECK.
• pack my weekend stuff? (which consisted of clothes bag, travel toiletry bag, laptop and gadgets bag, and purse) DEFINITELY CHECK.
• remind him to pack his stuff? DEFINITELY NOT CHECK.

aahhhhh!

i'm not sure if a lot of people will show up for part a,b,c, and/or d. but as long as his friends make it to some of the events, all're good.

he's walking back here. laters!!

jaja

color psychology by david johnson

like death and taxes, there is no escaping color. it is ubiquitous. yet what does it all mean? why are people more relaxed in green rooms? why do weightlifters do their best in blue gyms?

colors often have different meanings in various cultures. and even in western societies, the meanings of various colors have changed over the years. but today in the u.s., researchers have generally found the following to be accurate.

black

black is the color of authority and power. it is popular in fashion because it makes people appear thinner. it is also stylish and timeless. black also implies submission. priests wear black to signify submission to God. some fashion experts say a woman wearing black implies submission to men. black outfits can also be overpowering, or make the wearer seem aloof or evil. villains, such as dracula, often wear black.

white

brides wear white to symbolize innocence and purity. white reflects light and is considered a summer color. white is popular in decorating and in fashion because it is light, neutral, and goes with everything. however, white shows dirt and is therefore more difficult to keep clean than other colors. doctors and nurses wear white to imply sterility.

red

the most emotionally intense color, red stimulates a faster heartbeat and breathing. it is also the color of love. red clothing gets noticed and makes the wearer appear heavier. since it is an extreme color, red clothing might not help people in negotiations or confrontations. red cars are popular targets for thieves. in decorating, red is usually used as an accent. decorators say that red furniture should be perfect since it will attract attention.

the most romantic color, pink, is more tranquilizing. sports teams sometimes paint the locker rooms used by opposing teams bright pink so their opponents will lose energy.

blue

the color of the sky and the ocean, blue is one of the most popular colors. it causes the opposite reaction as red. peaceful, tranquil blue causes the body to produce calming chemicals, so it is often used in bedrooms. blue can also be cold and depressing. fashion consultants recommend wearing blue to job interviews because it symbolizes loyalty. people are more productive in blue rooms. studies show weightlifters are able to handle heavier weights in blue gyms.

green

currently the most popular decorating color, green symbolizes nature. it is the easiest color on the eye and can improve vision. it is a calming, refreshing color. people waiting to appear on tv sit in "green rooms" to relax. hospitals often use green because it relaxes patients. brides in the middle ages wore green to symbolize fertility. dark green is masculine, conservative, and implies wealth. however, seamstresses often refuse to use green thread on the eve of a fashion show for fear it will bring bad luck.

yellow

cheerful sunny yellow is an attention getter. while it is considered an optimistic color, people lose their tempers more often in yellow rooms, and babies will cry more. it is the most difficult color for the eye to take in, so it can be overpowering if overused. yellow enhances concentration, hence its use for legal pads. it also speeds metabolism.

purple

the color of royalty, purple connotes luxury, wealth, and sophistication. it is also feminine and romantic. however, because it is rare in nature, purple can appear artificial.

brown

solid, reliable brown is the color of earth and is abundant in nature. light brown implies genuineness while dark brown is similar to wood or leather. brown can also be sad and wistful. men are more apt to say brown is one of their favorite colors.

colors of the flag

in the u.s. flag, white stands for purity and innocence. red represents valor and hardiness, while blue signifies justice, perseverance, and vigilance. the stars represent the heavens and all the good that people strive for, while the stripes emulate the sun's rays.

food for thought

while blue is one of the most popular colors it is one of the least appetizing. blue food is rare in nature. food researchers say that when humans searched for food, they learned to avoid toxic or spoiled objects, which were often blue, black, or purple. when food dyed blue is served to study subjects, they lose appetite.

green, brown, and red are the most popular food colors. red is often used in restaurant decorating schemes because it is an appetite stimulant.

i stumbled[upon] this article at: http://www.infoplease.com/spot/colors1.html

jaja