Word Vomit

I have a lot of things running around my mind. Today. Since I was supposed to be working, but I'm not. So I'm stuck at home, watching Sex and The City all day. And thoughts in my head.

• I'm going to be 25 in less than a month. And I am going to be 25 with nothing to show for it. 
• I want to be as independent and stubborn as Miranda Hobbes. But as smart/nonsmart as Carrie Bradshaw. And as homely and motherly and wifely and classy as Charlotte York. But as, uh, well.. when I get old, I want to have Samantha Jones' body. that's about it.
• I am stubborn.
• I miss loving and being loved.
• I miss holding hands. and kissing. Oh damn, I miss kissing.
• I hate not having a car.

AAHH!! So many things going on in my head, I can't even put it into words.

One thing I do know.

I miss you D.O.E.